Existence and Its Purpose

Do people understand or value their own existence? I’m contemplating.

Are there people who know their purpose but are just ashame to say it or are there just people who really don’t know the meaning of their own existence? Is is just enough for us to be present in this world ?

One time, I asked my sister what is her purpose in life  and she answered ” I don’t know ” . I was blown away by that answer. I was repairing my broken pieces. How come? i thought..She who is a member of the choir in our church and goes to church every Sunday, she who falls in love quite so often, she who study ” Higher Education “, she as the person who is often viewed as a happy one doesn’t know why she’s here on earth?  She is still young. She’s only 17 but do we have to be old  to understand or value our existence, to know our purpose? I don’t know if she was just shy to answer my question but why would be shy? We are all born to fight what we believe our true purpose is. Either right or wrong..

I believe that there are people who wander in this world continuously throughout their whole life. Repetitive events in our life are boring. What we are now is what we are still after ten years or so. That pattern will go on if there will be no conscious awareness of the meaning of our existence. People work hard everyday, have fun everyday, do evil things everyday. What are those for then?

Every end of the day, you are stressed out. So sad to think, do we have to be stressed out for the things that have no value to us? Do we have to exert an effort to the things that will just go nowhere? The man who doesnt seek for the meaning of his life will be forever doomed to unhappiness. That man gets lost in this wide world where people do what they may. You walk this earth for nothing, waste your life for nothing. DIE for nothing.

Every man should have something he’d die for or live for. We’re the one who must realize it. No one in his right mind will say to someone what he should live for or die for. As a man goes on with his life, he realizes those things. A man live first and foremost for the good of his mind , body and soul. What is a man without those? Though sometimes it takes a long time for him to realize the purpose of his existence, eventually in a perfect time or place, you’ll see that man flying freely like he already knows where to go because that’s the way what life wants us to be.

I’m also thinking that sometimes or more often, it takes a person for the other person to realize why he belongs in this world. It’s not by telling what a man must do but to make the man realize what he can do for his own life.

I took a deep breath and asked my sister if she really doesnt know why she’s here on earth..she just nodded and I became silent. Somehow I knew I made her think deeply about that matter..It’s important for me to know not because I want to criticize her but because simply she is my sister.

It’s never enough that we know we exist.

words

I’ve always been fascinated by people who speak words of wisdom in a daily conversation. It feels like there is something in them, something powerful that attracts you to listen more. They really really want me to think of what they’ve gone through to say those words . Anyway, you wouldnt say something wise if it has no meaning to you..isnt it?
I am an observant and I note every good things that people say or do..It helps me a lot

Judgment

My conversation with my cousin and my grandmother made me think of judgment. How do we judge things? I always think that one of the gifts of wisdom is right judgment or vise versa. I focus deeply on my own feelings more than anything else because I want to have wisdom and be able to judge things right. I judge myself and question my beliefs. I always ask myself if my beliefs are the truth.

Most of the people focus their views on the world leaving themselves undiscovered. As I’ve always known, ourself is the greatest navigator of our whole being, not our parents, not our siblings, friends or other people. If there’s anythings we should see before we open or close our eyes, it should be our own self. Before we open our eyes and see the world, we should be aware of our own existence and our purpose. The last person we should survey before we close our eyes is ourself not others. As a person has his eyes open, the only thing he should focus to see is not the just the beauty but the beauty in all the ugliness of life. Seeing only the beautiful thing is deceiving. It will just lead a person to the wrong judgment of the imperfections in life.

A person with an unopened mind only sees the things he wishes to see. That makes that person blind and judgmental. There is no way  of achieving wisdom.Wisdom only reveals itself to the heart that wishes to understand and to the mind that wishes to be wise. When all the truth outweigh the lies and our mind and heart are not clouded with evil thoughts and feelings, right judgment is the first fruit of wisdom and all the beauties come next.

uncertainty

I’ve been staying at home for almost four months now since I graduated from college. I planned to get a job after I graduated but I was not certain about anything. If I will apply for a job, it has to be related to the field of my study because of the force of my parents so I ended up staying at home. I hate mentioning that parents rule their children. I keep mentioning it. This coming August, I will have my nursing review and in November, I will take the board exam.

Probably on November I will apply for a job and I will live in an apartment. I am anxious because I want to be there now. I want to be in the life I wish for without the the ruling shadows.

I know freedom requires responsibility. Every man who wishes to be free knows how to act responsibly for his own life. I know how it is to be free and I know how to be like in a cell. I’ve been there not knowing how many times. Now I have something to regret now, It’s not cherishing the moment you are free with the whole world in your own hands.

There’s nothing certain in this world. The only certain thing is death. We will soon be forgotten by the world after our death if we’ll just walk this earth without a purpose.

I am still glad that I finally know what to do  in life. Happy that everyday I love seeing myself having many dreams and bright ideas to fulfill, that I am being moved by amazing beauties of life. When the time comes that we’ll be in the end of the road we are traveling, we can firmly stand and look back to all what we’ve gone through with a wide smile in our face. Ready to face death with acceptance rather than despair.

My actions, Your reactions

I believe that my heart and my mind are as colossal as the universe. I’ve been thinking of many great ideas to do in life but something suddenly cross my mind. Do the actions that make us happy really have to hurt others? I believe my actions are meant for my own good and I may hurt others but It is for sure unintentional.

The mere fact is you just want to be happy with everything you do without harming or inflicting other but the law is ” for every action there is always an equal and opposite reaction “.. I strongly agree.

With every decision we make, there’s always somebody who will put a hindrance on our way. With every action, there’s always somebody who gets hurt or get mad.

Living in this world means being filled with human emotions. Hate,envy, jelousy of people are always on our way . You just have to let their emotions pass by and go on with what you are happy the most. I always say that I am not living for them to think of what they are thinking of me.

In this world, you just wanted to be loved, cared and be accepted despite being different.. In this world, sometimes, no matter how many times you ignore the negative remarks of people on you, you somehow grieve for it and no matter how colossal your understanding of the world is, you cannot merely ignore the thoughts of those people who are worthy of your attention. You cannot ignore those who are dear to you and say to them that you’ll go this way. It’s hard to say that you are different and what they want for you to be is not what you want to be.

I came to the point that maybe I should blog my life and shout to the world how I feel.

Something to be written before I sleep

Here’s the song I recently added on my playlist by Wilco. I find it hard to sleep without hearing new interesting song or reading a story or a  quote. I page hopped on one of my visitor’s homepage and decided to copy his favorite thoughts because I simply like all those thoughts too..I’m not thinking it’s plagiarism or something because those are from “great minds” thoughts. Many people have touched my life in so many ways and those people will never be forgotten for they will always remain in my mind and their words will be kept  like a treasure in my heart.

Oh so now I remember my brother who everytime I tell him not to be like other teens who waste their body from drug addictions, alcohol and cigarettes always answer me with “you can never tell  “..He really makes me mad whenever he answers that way and I’m telling him if he’s got no brain or too dull enough not to understand what’s good for him. He’s still way too young so i still have a hope that he’ll learn “what it is and what it is not” in life. I blame my father for tolerating my two brothers on their irrational acts.  I hope, if by any reasons they will be against the world, they are traveling on the right path rather than to be ridiculed by people for being against the world by means of traveling in the wrong route.
My sentiment has no connection with the song but I suddenly remembered my two brothers. My life revolves around shaping those whose head are still soft to be perfectly shaped. I hope I’m doing the right thing. I cant be always right but at least I try to change the people who are worth my attention.

Comment (If All Men Are Truly Brothers)
Originally by Charles Wright

Watch out for your friends
Well they may lose in the end
Sometimes their child can make you sin
What is a man without a friend?
We all live within a game
The word ‘excuse’ has many names
Where true friends really come
You can’t afford to lose one

If all men were truly brothers
Why then do we hurt one another?
Love and peace from ocean to ocean
Somebody please second my emotion!
All men were born to be free, yeah
What about you? And what about me?
This world is filled with hate!
There’s nothing left
If you enslave me, you’ll never rescue yourself

Well jealousy, as I recall
Has always been man’s hardest fall
To conquer fear, well that’s quite a quest
Until we do never rest
A child was born yesterday
Nothing but an innocent babe
Someone sowed a bitter seed
How could it grow but a bitter weed?
Society, how can you teach
If you don’t practice what you preach?

If all men were truly brothers
Why then, can’t we love one another?
Love and peace from ocean to ocean
Somebody please second my emotion!
All men were born to be free, yeah
What about you? What about me?
This world is filled with hate!
There’s nothing left
If you enslave me, you’ll only hurt yourself

Hey you! Over there!
I want to know why you left
With all your riches and your fancy things
Can you tell me how many friends can you truly say you have?

My Favorite Thoughts( a friend’s favorite thoughts)
A baby is born with a clenched fist, but an old man dies with an open hand.
A good name is to be more desired than great riches, favor is better than silver and gold.


A leader who is a great oppressor lacks understanding, but he who hates unjust gain will prolong his days.
A lie is the refuge of weakness.  The man of courage is not afraid of the truth. – J. C. Macaulay


A man who has not suffered, what does he know? – Henry Suso
A tranquil heart is life to the body, but passion is rottenness to the bones.


An hour of life is still life. – Schindler’s List
“Approval Addiction” always leads to disappointment…


Character is always lost when a high ideal is sacrificed on the altar of conformity and popularity.
Conscience is like your heart – you can’t carve off a piece and expect the rest to function as before – Arnost Lustig, Dita Saxova


Every experience God gives, every person He puts in our lives, is the perfect preparation for the future that only He can see. – Corrie Ten Boom
Every man must do two things alone:  he must do his own believing, and his own dying. – Martin Luther


Eyes that look are common.  Eyes that see are rare. – J. Oswald Sanders
Fanatic:  Someone who cannot change his mind and will not change the subject.


God can do tremendous things through the person who doesn’t care who gets the credit.
He came humbly.  He lived simply.  He died willingly.


He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose. – Jim Elliot
He needs no one, but when faith is present, He works through anyone. – A. W. Tozer


He who rebukes a man will afterward find more favor than he who flatters with the tongue.
Humility is strong–not bold; quiet–not speechless; sure–not arrogant – Estelle Smith


I am as close to God as I am from the person from whom I am most divided. – Anonymous
I asked God for all things so I could enjoy life.  He gave me life so I could enjoy all things.


I enjoy heaven already in my soul. – Augustus Toplady
I have been driven many times to my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go. – Abraham Lincoln


I have often regretted my speech, never my silence. – Publius
Impatience is a form of unbelief


Is anybody happier because you passed his way?  Does anyone remember that you spoke to him today?
Keep your heart with all diligence and God will look after the universe – A. W. Tozer


Life is a lot like tennis–the one who can serve best seldom loses.
My conviction is that the goal of man’s existence is not happiness but spiritual growth. – Alexander Solzhenitsyn


Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man’s character, give him power.
Our passions are not too strong, they are too weak. We are far too easily pleased. – C. S. Lewis


Our pursuit of God is successful just because He is forever seeking to manifest Himself to us. – A. W. Tozer
Religion is for those who are afraid of going to hell, Spirituality is for those who have already been there. – Anonymous


Remember, amateurs built the ark.  Professionals built the Titanic. – Anonymous
Seek for happiness and you will never find it, seek righteousness and you will discover you are happy… – D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones


The best way to show my gratitude to God is to accept everything, even my problems, with joy. – Mother Theresa
The easier it is to live somewhere, the harder it is to believe. – Dr. Michael Brown


The most important thing in life is to live your life for something more important than your life. – William James
The rich man is wise in his own eyes, but the poor who has understanding sees through him.


To be right with God has often meant to be in trouble with men. – A. W. Tozer
Two men looked out through prison bars.  One saw mud; the other stars.


What is life’s most difficult task?…To have no burden to carry. – Sadhu
What you do speaks so loud that I cannot hear what you say. – Ralph Waldo Emerson


When it is dark enough, men see the stars. – Ralph Waldo Emerson
When the righteous triumph, there is great glory, but when the wicked rise, men hide themselves.


Yet, self-sufficient as Thou art Thou dost desire my worthless heart; this, only this, dost Thou require. – Johann Scheffler
You are the light of the world, but the switch must be turned on. – Austin Alexander Lewis


You can’t threaten a dead man. – Dr. Michael Brown
You don’t have a soul. You are a Soul. You have a body. – C.S. Lewis

new day, new interest

I suddenly became interested in photography. I was inspired by a man who has tons of pictures on his page so I thought I should learn to take good pictures of everything. I was interested before in photography but I become more interested today because of the bloggers  who shower their homepages with wonderful events in their life..Maybe I’ll try to enroll in a photography class someday. A picture really tells a lot. It can tell a lot of stories.

I imagined myself taking pics of our lake , the sunset, sunrise, our back lot, laughters and events of everyday living.  I’m happy that there’s another drive that moves me. I will never run out of crazy thoughts of everything. As a lay on bed thinking or even sit on our back lot watching trees and birds, I keep on thinking what else to do in life and gladly, life shows me what to do and how to do things. I always tell myself, there are more beautiful and fascinating things in  this world we have to be crazy about instead of ruining  our short life.

So one day, I’m gonna post the works of my hands on this ever lively world of blogging..

what does it mean to love someone?

okay..here’s what I’ve learned from last night’s chat..it comes from the bible..A guy asked how to be loved and everyone gave their own ideas and opinions.. then the topic went to something more deep..I think I became a lil immature about how to love and be loved..I am free spirited and always do what i want to do so how am I suppose to deal with the love thing…Am I selfish? I even stated that I want someone whom I can be myself with..I know how to love but I guess it’s not enough to just know how to..Someone told me, insecurity is immaturity..jealousy as well..i think about it and realized they are right..I just thought If I want to have freedom I should also give the same degree or even more to that someone..Does respect have something top do with it? I think so..Anyway, respect is essential in a good relationship..Do I want  commensalism or mutualism in a relationship or both?..hmm..In commensalism, at least the other is unharmed while I am benefited..in mutualism we both benefit from each other..hmm..Or should I choose neither..? aha! a No! No! to parasitism of course and never..ha ha ha…I should not qoute Prince Charles’ “whatever love means“..never ever..It’s a different thing..hmmmp..

I arrived into a question that plays on the back of my mind on how to love but never get jealous,envy or selfish..So i remember something from the bible..and decided to look for it..

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not Love, I am sounding brass or a tinkling cymbal. Though I tell what is to come, and know all secrets, and all wisdom;  and though I have Faith so strong as the storm which lifts mountains from their seat, but have not Love, I am nothing.

And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and give all my fire that I have received from my Father, but have not Love, I am in no wise profited.

Love is patient, Love is kind. Love is not envious, works not evil, knows not pride; is not rude, neither selfish; is slow to anger, imagines no mischief; rejoices not in injustice, but delights in justice. Love defends all, Love believes all, Love Hopes all, Love bears all; never exhausts itself; but as for tongues they shall cease, and, as for knowledge, it shall vanish away. For we have truth in part, and error in part, but when the fullness of perfection is come, that which is in part shall be blotted out.

When a man was a child he spoke as a child, understood as a child, thought as a child; but when he became a man he put away childish things. For now we see through a glass and through dark sayings. Now we know in part, but when we are come before the face of God, we shall not know in part, but even as we are taught by him. And now remain these three: Faith and Hope and Love; but the greatest of these is Love. (Jesus- The Essene Gospel of Peace p.19-20 and Bible 1st. Cor. ch. 13)

Living in Colors

I decided to change my layout  on my friendster profile today..from Gucci to Lacoste to the fact that I cant afford one. I started blogging on wordpress last week ..I just imported some of my blogs from friendster to . and oh! I took several IQ tests..ha ha..i added new songs to my playlist..Now, I’m missing my MP4. It had to be sold for a very important reason. gosh..I cried today as well, In my breakfast while talking to my grandmother and late afternoon while talking to her and my cousin’s husband. I love my grandmother so much!
A good cry is good for the soul so I spend time crying. ha ha..One day I’ll write something about my grandmother because she means a lot to me. she has a wonderful heart. She’s the best grandmother in the world.( I’m gonna cry now..) She has a very beautiful soul. God loves her so much I knew that.
I need things that keep me busy..so I spend my time answering trivia questions everyday and chatting of course..It’s my daily ritual..I laughed a lot today too. As I drink my coffee, talk with my grandma, laugh with my siblings, chat with smart people, answer trivia questions, write a blog, discover new things, teach others, I am Living in Colors..Life is wonderful..Life is colorful..Life is too beautiful just to  waste.
My life is colorful!!!

we are always happy !!!

Just wondering….

Am I opinionated?
opinionated because I always say what I mean? I am not prejudiced nor conceited..maybe I did or will be doing so but I can assure that it was or will be unbeknownst to me

Why do people question someone else’s faith or religion instead of pondering their own? I really wonder why…If you claim to be Christian, denominational or non-denominational, you’ll respect God’s name and those who believe in him, don’t you? If not, then don’t claim you are Christian at all.. I respect other’s religion like how I respect mine.. There are people who scorn or abominate religion telling it’s a crutch for the weak minded, a conspiracy, a scam !!! I believe in he power of religion to anyone’s life..There can be no wrong religion..No religion leads its follower to the wrong path ..

I dont like people who ask to validate someone else’s beliefs..Why not question his own belief..why not ask himself why he chooses to believe his belief..If you think you have enough reason in life to believe what you are believing now then the other person has his own reason too..

Whatever you think is true and good for you then stay with it rather than meander in the life we only live once..

sometimes it’s better to say “To each his own” rather than argue with close minded people…although saying to each his own to me is like saying “whatever” or I don’t care..It doesn’t sound respect at all..There are some situations where you can use it wisely..

Why do people always forget to clean their hands before pointing fingers to someone? I’ll always remember Bob Marley’s song “Judge not” (So before you point your fingers, Be sure your hands are clean)…I love that song…(do a little dancing) ha ha ha…But let’s say by merely wondering why means I am already judging isn’t it?

Enough for now..my mind is tired of wondering..I can no longer construct the questions I have on my mind..lol