Goodbye september

This will be my last post for this wonderful September. A lot of things had happen and I learned a lot. This month  has been a good growth ground for all the changes that happened in me.

I wanna thank the people that made this month colorful to me and most especially to God for giving me another life to live. For continuously teaching me and leading me in this long journey called life.

Life is about discovery and learning and adapting to changes that occur in everyday living.

God bless all the people who’ve been good or bad to me..

understanding self is understanding people

I’ve tried being what I really want people to see in me. The real me. I don’t know why it was hard and why still some people view me as someone I’m not. Am I portraying the wrong person? Am I projecting as the person I really want to be or am I just being really misunderstood?

I keep asking myself despite my strong self awareness why some people though they haven’t met me don’t like me. And since I’m self aware, I should know how to understand them. Self awareness leads to understanding other people why they act or behave the way they do. I am trying to completely understand though there’s a force that drives me to be odd to them since they don’t like me.

I remember these words of one person ” Ignore the people who are not happy about you for there are people out there who are happy when you win, grieve with you and always there no matter what happens”. Sometimes  people who are nice to us are the one being ignored.

I came up with this conclusion regarding that thing:

• I am not portraying someone who is not me
• I am not projecting as the person I want to be
• There are just mean people who will push you down no matter how good you are
• Constant reflection and self awareness  is the key not to be affected by all the emotional stresses
• You cant please all people

And lastly, for those people who think I am apathetic..

I dont have a flat affect, apathetic or whatever..

I JUST KNOW HOW TO UNDERSTAND

Obedience: The key to blessings

This is one of the wonderful message I’ve heard today.

Number 1 is: The key to blessing is obedience.

2: When God gives, he pours a lot, enough for the blessings to be shared.

This is an example of obedience from the bible and how the blessings came pouring to the fishermen

WHEN JESUS BEGAN to teach the people by the river Jordan, a few young men came to him as followers, or disciples. Some of these men were Andrew and John, Peter and Philip and Nathanael. While Jesus was teaching near Jerusalem and in Samaria, these men stayed with Jesus; but when he came to Galilee, they went to their homes and work, for most of them were fishermen from the Sea of Galilee.

One morning, soon after Jesus came to Capernaum, he went out of the city, by the sea, followed by a great throng of people, who had come together to see him and to hear him. On the shore were lying two fishing boats, one of which belonged to Simon and Andrew, the other to James and John and their father Zebedee. The men themselves were not in the boats, but were washing their nets near by.

Jesus stepped into the boat that belonged to Simon Peter and his brother Andrew, and asked them to push it out a little into the lake, so that he could talk to the people from it without being crowded too closely. They pushed it out, and then Jesus sat in the boat, and spoke to the people, as they stood upon the beach. After he had finished speaking to the people, and had sent them away, he said to Simon Peter:

“Put out into the deep water and let down your nets to catch some fish.”

“Master,” said Simon, “we have been fishing all night, and have caught nothing; but if it is your will, I will let down the net again.”

They did as Jesus bade them; and now the net caught so many fishes that Simon and Andrew could not pull it up, and it was in danger of breaking. They made signs to the two brothers, James and John, who were in the other boat, for them to come and help them. They came, and lifted the net, and poured out the fish. There were so many of them that both the boats were filled, and began to sink.

When Simon Peter saw this, he was struck with wonder, and felt that it was by the power of God. He fell down at the feet of Jesus, saying: “Oh Lord, I am full of sin, and am not worthy of all this! Leave me, O Lord.”

But Jesus said to Simon, and to the others, “Fear not; but follow me, and I will make you from this time fishers of men.”

From that time these four men, Simon and Andrew, James and John, gave up their nets and their work, and became disciples of Jesus.

the world is just awesome

I’ve been seeing this video on discovery channel for months and i really love watching the hosts singing. This is a very wonderful video stared by fascinating people..The world is really awesome

Learn to Focus on Solutions NOT on Problems

Think about this:

When NASA began the launch of astronauts into space, they found out that the pens wouldn’t work at a zero gravity( ink won’t flow down to the writing surface).

To solve this problem, it took them one decade and $12 million.

They developed a pen that worked at zero gravity, upside down, underwater, in practically any surface including crystal and in a temperature range from below the freezing to over 300 degrees Celsius.

And what did the Russians do?? They used a pencil!!

As I was reading my previous exams, I saw the above story at the back on one of my exams and it catched my attention so I decided to copy it.

In taking an exam, you get 50% chance of passing it if you’ll focus merely on what the question is trying to imply.

We usually make things harder for us. Why waste time and effort if there’s an alternative solution for every problems that arise in every life’s situation.

It is life consuming to live occupying your mind with the problems, analyzing too much of  it. There is fruitful result but is it worthy of the time you’ve spent?

Indolence is a disease

My board exam is getting nearer and nearer but I’m still not doing anything about it. I don’t know what suppresses me to study more and leave all the unnecessary habits for just two months.

I feel I’m not really interested to pass the board exam but I have to pass it whether i like it or not. I knew I’ll suffer in the end if I’ll not make things right. I always knew the consequences. I always feel I need to do something but I always end up  with nothing accomplished.

Until when am i going to be this way?

I feel I’m doing this like forever..

Indolence eats me bit by bit leaving me with excruciating pain I can no longer endure. I have a productive mind. I think a lot.

I do nothing.

I gain nothing..

Indolence is a disease. It is a systemic infection that poisons all normal functioning of the body especially the brain and heart.

It is  life consuming…

holding hands

The silent word that heal the wounds in every misunderstanding..

the joy that it brings when it bridges the gap in every diversities.

Two powerful hands that embrace  tomorrow together.

and at the end of the day, the comforting feeling that relieves the sadness and gives  hope to survive the challenge of tomorrow.

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we only live once

Learn from the mistakes of others. You can’t live long enough to make them all yourself.

-Eleanor Roosevelt
Life’s too short to think I can learn all things in this world all from what I’ve experienced. I A person should not make the same mistakes the other person have done.

Life doesn’t require perfection and mastery in every aspect. Life just wants us to learn things step by step because life doesn’t give you what you want in just one step. Sometimes you have to watch the steps other people make. Follow the right steps and ignore the wrong one..

Each person has his own way of living and dealing with his life. Some learn things  the hard way and some learn  from the easy one. The best thing in life is that we learn whether from easy or hard.

Life is not meant  to be wasted from the wrong steps we make even though we knew the right one. But for any reasons we have why we’re committing the same mistakes we or other people have made before, we must always remember that we only live once…

new chapter

I’ll always remember this month of September

when this life has a new chapter…

it’s not only the way i looked that have changed, not only the brilliant smile i give to almost everyone everyday, not only the looks of people around  that puzzles me but how i view the world according to what i’ve learned from the past. It feels like I’m learning little by little. It enlivens me and gives me a sense of euphoria.

and these letters are for the people who became a part of this wonderful month though this month has not yet ended..

to my seatmate and food companion:

The foods and ridiculous moments we’ve shared will always be remembered. Just a brief letter for letting me laugh at my mistakes and letting me correct you with your own mistakes.

To the people I’ve just met and to the past friends i meet again:

oh this month will not be really wonderful if not by your genuine kindness and the smile you pay everytime you see me..Thanks for letting me be myself and showing acceptance though we’ve not yet met each other by exchanging names.  I promise tomorrow I’ll introduce myself properly .

and thank you for the smile of the people I’ve had misunderstandings with…

Thank you people for making me happy with my desire to change..

I can tell this is my best month of the year, not the graduation nor the ringhop ceremony..

I’ve closed one chapter in my life and i opened a new one with new characters that colors my life every waking day..

I believe that it’s how you view yourself that can really make a big difference..

tragedy more than anything

Sometimes the tragedy of life is not merely about bad fate or failures. It is not merely about the death of someone who is dear to us. Most heartbreaking tragedy is the inability or unwillingness to communicate our feelings that doom us to immense thought or feeling of nothingness in the world. Death is a natural occurrence and you can cope with it eventually. Failures can turn out to success for you’ll never be a failure forever.

It is a man’s great sorrow not to express his desires or feelings before someone pass out of existence. The grief is either for the one who is left behind or the one who will leave. It is not death nor parting that divides a person from his beloved. It is more on the the words that are left unsaid or the things that should have been done but were not done.

Some times in my past life, I’ve been through that way. It takes forever to forget someone for the wound will be healed but the scar will always remain. I am sometimes doom to unhappiness because of the incommunicated feelings from the past. You know the feeling of waking up midnight from a strange dream of the past, having perfumes that bring back the old memories, touching or seeing things that froze you sometimes while your mind blocks the incoming rhythm of twisted black and white memories.

You can never blame yourself saying “I should have done this or I should have said that”. That’s no use. We structured our lives in the past. We built what we have today. We designed from the past what we are doing now. There are things that are made to be that way but we always have a choice. Life presents us many choices. Sometimes there are choices that have the same results but we can always choose the best choice or choices.

It’s hard to mend and build ourselves from the blocks, cement and sands of the past but those are  solid and firm foundation for the years to come. There’s always a purpose in all of these happenings in human lives. The past doesn’t always bring sweet results.The past doesn’t always bring a good or better you.

Isn’t it a tragedy more not to choose the best when no one prevents not to? Isnt it a tragedy to be doomed to unhappiness because of the various good choices that we failed to value from the past?

The failure in your own self. It is a tragedy. The common human tragedy.