I Love Chuck

I honestly want to find someone like Chuck. He may not have a body of a hunk or he may not have an amazing strength of a real guy but Chuck’s a good man. Chuck works at the Buy More and yes he’s just an average guy but Chuck is more than just a good person as what Sarah is always saying, he’s sweet, caring and smart,yes smart.. well not at all times because he had compromised himself a lot of times, let say…. always?

Chuck always do anything for his loved ones especially Ellie and Morgan. He’ll risk his life for them. Chuck is trusting. Everytime I’m watching, I couldnt stop myself from saying moron and stupid. Well, Casey always use to call him moron. Chuck is a great best friend and a great lover too.

And of course, who wouldnt want to watch Chuck to always see “Captain Awesome”. He’s a great guy too. How could there be a hunk plus a good guy in one? I dont know the things that he did “awesome” but that’s what Chuck always use to call him. Ah, now I remember, Capt. Awesome is into mountain climbing and jumping out of the plane, doing awesome things for Chuck’s sister, Ellie so all in all, everything he does is awesome according to Chuck and Ellie. Both of them call Capt. Awesome’s family, “The Awesomes”. Anyway, Chuck’s really a great guy. A man wouldnt give big credits for another man, especially when he’s talking to his girlfriend.

If I couldnt find someone like Chuck, I’ll probably look for someone like Casey. John Casey. He’s always rude to Chuck but he treats Chuck as a buddy. He’s not someone who overtly shows feelings but somehow you know he has a good heart. He shows care through rudeness because maybe he doesnt like affection, closeness, anything like that. What I do like about him also is his jaw. A jaw that was chiseled by Michaelangelo as described by Chuck under a truth serum.

Morgan is needy, equally stupid as Chuck, not to include Chuck’s stupidity in a good way. Morgan is funny for not being funny on the way he does things. Sometimes I couldnt stand him because he appears to be dependent to Chuck and his moronity in doing his job at the Buy More is, well, funny, yeah and a bit immoral. Good thing he never gets fired. Sometimes you’ll love him but most of the time you’ll hate him and I dont like his hair. It’s untidy. But you’ll still love him, considering he’s Chuck’s best friend.

You’ll like the whole cast even the Buy More employees. They’re fun to watch but most of the time the way their minds go are odd and  moronic.

You’ll also love Ellie and Sarah for sure if you’re a guy.

So those are the four great guys I love watching in different extraordinary ways. Catch them on NBC.

Just Another Birthday

I was waiting patiently for my sister to come because It’s her birthday today. I was waiting what she has for us. I was pretty dissappointed to see a box of pizza because I was hoping for something better than a box of pizza and a juice drink. But at least we enjoyed eating all of it. Today’s my sister’s 18th birthday. She is still studying in college so I understand that she has more priorities in life than bringing a bunch of blowout for us. When I was her age, I took all my friends in a fast food chain and I ordered the best I can give for them. They were my friends, I loved them. Now, they are strangers to me after realizing we have lots of differences. I put all my efforts to become a good friend to them but nothing really lasts forever. I guess they do not belong in my future, I dont belong in theirs neither.

Sometimes we exert too much efforts on the things that make us happy at the moment. We sometimes forget the essentials. We value objects than the happiness of others. We value peers than the happiness of our own family.

Yesterday was my brother’s birthday too. It was especial. Of course every birthdays in the family is special. But my brother instead of partying with his family, invited all his friends in the house and cook foods for them. I guess birthdays are for friends or peers mostly and not essentially be celebrated with families. So to celebrate his birthday on my own, despite of my dysmenorrhea, I took a bath and walk few miles to buy foods and coke but my intention for going out was just to buy feminine pads. I hid it in a room(the room I share with my two sisters). I celebrate both of their birthdays alone unbeknownst to them.

I’m not upset. I did the same thing when I was their age but now my focus is their happiness after realizing that they are more important than anyone or anything in the world.

What Motivates Me Now

First of all, I have lots of stories how I was burried alive because of lack of motivation. I already wrote it on some of my blogs.I”m suppose to be a better person now if I remained alive during those times. Isaac Newton have this law that a body at rest will remain at rest unless acted upon by an external force, something like that. That is true but in a human being capable of doing anything with the power of the mind, I cant believe that Iwas just one of those who just let others pushed me around.

I started to think that we are sails without a compass. We just go where the wind blows because there are many uncertainties in life, that we can do nothing about. We dont want to be disappointed or humiliated, that’s why we move  aimlessly and sometimes we dont try things on our own because of fear.

Nine years from now, I’ll be 30 and then I’ll be 40 and then 50 and so on,and eventually I’ll  die excluding other human life circumstances, I’ll probably die of old age. Before I get there, I have to have a fulfilled life. My parents wont be supporting me forever, I’ll have my own family in the future and because those are normal human phenomenon, I have to start now.

I’m budgeting my time on study, exercise, family fun and sleep. There is a dynamic force that motivates me now and that is my dream. Everyone dreams whether big or small and I believe there’s no small or big dream as long as you are doing something to get it.

Once, I thought I was the best but when I saw some of the faces I know being in the place where they want to be, that was the time I realized I wasnt the best at all because some of them werent the best, and I’m sure some of them were thinking they werent the best but who’s the best now? Sometimes it’s not how smart or intelligent you are,  it’s how much you want your life to be productive. It’s not even how much you excel in thinking abilities but how dynamic you are to excel in anything that can help you get through your goals.

Now I see that I’ll drive that dream car one of these days, I’ll have that beautiful house and I’ll have a merry life. Those arent just dreams. Those are  mine. I’m the one who’s trying to build those from scratch. Who knows what I can make out of scratch with the amount of motivation that I have now.

Blogging Tips That Work For Me

After struggling from zero to only not more than 10 views per day  in my first 3 months of blogging, I finally learned how to make my blog be clicked and read by random readers not only who blog on wordpress. 

Although these may sound cliche but these actually work for me:

 Dont write when you feel like you dont want to write.

Make an interesting title. This one is important because I noticed that some of my interesting titles are still being viewed eventhough they were made like let’s say 3 mos ago and even the contents arent really good. Plus I noticed that my blog stat suddenly boosts whenever I’m posting a blog with an interesting title.

If you want others to read your blog, read other’s blogs too. This works for me and dont forget to leave a sensible comment.

Blog stat isnt really important to me but the more often I blog, the more I get many views and comments. But I’ve got to be real, looking at blog stat is fun.Really.

Be yourself. I dont try to be a newspaper columnist or a professional writer because if I tried, I will not sound like me and I’ll have many mistakes for sure. Plus, no words are censored when blogging, you can write anything and everything and show the real you.

I think short blogs are tend to be read fully by most bloggers and large blocks of text  only bore readers so the best thing to do is to break it down to small paragraphs.

WordPress has tips also on how your blogs can be featured. When some of my blogs got featured, my blog stat increased.

Learn from your blog stat I think is the most important.

POLL

I changed my page from Hemingway to this one. I just wanna know if you like my new page.

Blogging is Harmful Too

Blogging is an outlet of thoughts, emotions, ideas and opinions etc. I consider this important in my life because it also helps me grow. But as I progresses here, I found out that I’ve been writing negatives about me.

I would still love to share my thoughts and emotions to the whole blogosphere but I’m appalled by the thought that I just compromise myself. I’ve got to be real but someday this will not be therapeutic to my present and future relationships, to the people who want to find out who they are talking to, to my future employers etc. 

When you’ve said something not good about yourself, people always tend to see the bad ones not the good ones, even the ratio of bad from good is 1:1oo.

You cant control people and you cant always explain your words and actions when they see something wrong from you. 

But with the knowledge that this may not be good for myself, I’ll still continue expressing my self and remain in the blogosphere.

Right-brained Person

I was browsing the web to look for different kinds of puzzles and to see my ability in solving puzzles. But here’s what I find interesting. This totally matches my abilities. I am a right brained person but can function as a whole brained one sometimes.

Comparing Left and Right Brain 

Left brain	Right brain
Logic	Rhythm, Creative, Abstract
Lists	Color
Linear	Imagination
Words	Day dreaming
Numbers	Intuition
Sequence	Spatial awareness
Analysis	Music
How	Why
Maths	Drawing
Structured	Unlimited
Reasonable	Not always
Practical	Wild and crazy
Believe in present	Believe in future
Incremental fixes	Quantum leaps
Continual improvement	Break through
From experience	Far reaching
Based on acquired skills	Based on desire

Right-brained People

Emotions give a more activated and chemically stimulated brain, which helps us recall things better. – Cahil 

1. The more intuitive and random in processing information and the more apt you are to store information primarily in pictures. 
2. When asked to recall an event or a person, the right-brained person will flash instantly on an image. 
3. A right-brained person is more likely to remember a face and a left-brained person would remember the name. 
4. Although this person has a strong visual memory, he/she tends not to have the ability to perform logical, linguistic tasks. 
5. Right-brained people tend to view and respond to the word with pictures and physically; unfortunately the world (especially schools) tends to view and respond with words. 

Whole-brained People 

1. These souls, in some respects, have the best of both worlds. 
2. They have the wonderful ability to shift tasks to the hemisphere of the brain that’s best equipped to tackle them. 
3. When it comes to reading directions or doing a logical exercise, these people are efficient and able to sequence enough to complete the project. 
4. They also enjoy creative abilities and can paint, create music, and use their intuition. They make good CEO’s because they can solve larger problems and pay attention to detail to apply to a situation. 
5. The whole brained individual can see the forest and the trees. But, he/she may lack the organizational strengths of a left brained person and the creative brilliance of a right-brained person. 

This is from Buzzle. I just copied mine. After having some confusions about my abilities, I finally found out that those statements above are the things I can do which I doubt most of the time.

100th Post-WHO AM I?

My blog would never reach its 100th post here on wordpress if I decided to blog in livejournal or xanga before. I had already 60 posts then when I suddenly thought that I should transfer to Livejournal. I’m glad I did not because WordPress rocks. 

So I have a 100 posts of pain, joy, unnecessary feelings, thoughts and sometimes writings about uneventful days in my life where I caught myself with nothing else to do but to think. I’ll definitely look back to all what I’ve written here after 10 years or so to see what I’ve changed and to still be able to see who I am today.

I shared a lot about my family, thoughts, weaknesses, strengths that some people would not find interesting because all I want to blog is about my life and few on social events, people, current conditions etc.. I thought how could this be interesting because I myself sometimes find it not interesting. None of the people who know me in real life read my blog. None of them know what I feel and think. Perhaps their thoughts about me might change if they happen to read my stories from the beginning to the end. I wish that day would happen because if that happens, I will not be misunderstood anymore. 

Brief Introduction: Who is this person? 

(Complete details are on my blog; I’m going back to where I started)

 

I think different from what people think usually. I feel different in different kinds of situations in life. I even react on things differently and I’m misunderstood in those different ways. And to explore the depth of my personality, I have to put everything on writing because in that way somehow I feel I belong to the world of openness that the real world finds someone like me as strange. Note: This is not my own opinion. People see me that way so I have to explore and discover my own identity on why I feel and see things this way.

There are variety of means of self expression as we know. We sometimes act unparalleled to what we say or say things unparalleled to what we do and in those ways we are misundertood. I’ve been misundertood in both ways because there are things that you can say fearlessly but unnesessary to be put in actions or some things you can do fearlessly but it’ll be better not to say.

Examining my life from the very beginning, though I was not wise or smart or maybe I’m still not wise and smart until now, I used to abide rules with the thought that rules are rules but it should not violate my rights. I dont know if my classmates when I was in elementary felt the same thing. Maybe they didnt. They seem to be unfeeling, always used to conform with the rules.  And though I used to conform with the rules too, some of the rules as I could remember, I had a feeling that this or that thing shouldnt be like this. When we were young we used to conform to rules because of punishment if we dont. Later on in our life, we conform to rules of the society because of moral obligations, because we know the right from wrong. That reasoning is what I carry with me until now. 

I also became a teenager but I didnt have the fear of having no friends, failing, or doing the wrong thing as long as I’m doing the wrong thing for the good of others or for saving myself without violating the rights of others. I totally had no fear of such. Until now, I still have no fear of such. My teenage life was not normal because we can divide high school students in different categories base on attitudes. There are the geeks or nerds, genius ones, jerk, cocky, the weirdos of which I think I belong and the nobodies. The “Nobodies” are the normal students. They study, conform to rules and eventually they are forgotten after graduation. Believe me, I couldnt remember all my classmates in high school even after a year of graduation. How bad.

At this point in my life, the greatest question that I want to answer with complete details  is ” Who Am I?” It’s a very hard question for me. Some people who find it easy to answer do not really know theirselves well because I felt that question slapped my face when I was looking for answers.  I’m glad I found some answers but I’m still on self discovery. 

I have full of introductions in writing about my life, because this life is not suppose to end with few footsteps in this world . This life should not reach the middle story because this very young life is still looking for a good start. With the knowledge that life may end in any day or any minute, that’s the only point that my life will become truly meaningful.

 

 

Board(Bored) Exam

Late afternoon, my father told me that I should take the board exam this coming June. I asked him if I’ll enroll in a review center and he told me it’s not necessary. For me, it’s necessary as oxygen. Only in a review center can you be motivated and aspire more in life. But he told me I should try and try. I thought I cant go to a war without a weapon. So from now on, I’ll read more books and I’m going to buy books related to my study. 

I do really hope that I will pass the board exam this time. I hope I can motivate myself and aim something bigger for myself. Although reviewing for the board exam is really boring, I hope I can still manage to learn everything so my second chance will not be wasted.

On the other hand, I cannot apply for a job while I’m still studying. Since I graduated last year, I’ve never had any job. I have no working experience. I do hope that I can have a good job eventually.

Change

I just realized that there are really some people who cant  welcome changes in life.  My friend way back in high school always view me as someone who is still the same as I was in high school. I showed that I’ve changed a lot since we graduated but she approaches me like I’m still the same old person she knew.

She hasnt change. Her favorites are still her favorites four years ago. Her attitude remains the same. Maybe she thinks that she has nothing to change. Maybe I’m the one who really need some changes in my life.

What if I think that I dont have anything to change? What would I be now?